I so desperately 
wanted to be liked
that I became 
versions of myself

So unlikeable
So inconsistent

People couldn’t understand
couldn’t come to terms
with who I even was

At almost 30
I've decided that
trying so hard to 
change the parts 
of me 
that are me
is like asking a car
to drive with no 
engine

So I stopped
trying to be likable

I started to become

Just that -
nothing more and
nothing less.

I became.

And when I 
stopped resisting
all that I am
I noticed
how likable
I became