next to the rubble
sits a leaf blower 
some supplies, 
unfinished wood

I reach for the tools
but do not know where 
to start

i pick the 
most destructive
and hear its force
as I watch the
sawdust fly 

this construction zone
was never intended 
for remodeling
or renovation

it needed 
demolished.

Now i watch,
holding too many
tools to carry
and a machine I have
no business operating

I set it down 
the engine still
running on high

I walk away.

I have to 
let the dust settle.